crazy-raver's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- just some weight on me I just dont know anymore. Its always this time of year. I laugh while saying this, I feeling saddened again. I think its just my "new" routine. Yeah, Imma say it. I hate my job. I hate the people I work with. I hate how I have to fake smile and greet people. But, my manager is cool as hell. I like my days off. I like money. I just feel like the more responsibilities I have the more tied down I am. I just wanna be free. No bills. No contracts. Just do whatever I want on a whim. I just see how chained I've become. (picture Anima from FF10 yeah thats how i see my self) I loathe it. Thats why, when my birthday came along, it just showed how much I have not accomplished. Theres so much I've stopped doing. I remember writing poems, but the inspiration has gone. I remember drawing for hours, but the imagines are no longer flowing. I'm slowing losing my wits. I can hardly meditate. Few things come naturally now. Even Glowstringing has become a chore when I do it. On the plus side, I've started dancing. Nothing serious, just fun, whenever fun is available. Ahhhh this feels nice, just typing what a feel, no filter. Well, that'll be it for now I just wanted to get this stuff off my chest. Thanks d-land, thanks readers and friends. Good night ladies and gentlemen, ~good ps. theres a previous entry if you didnt already read it. 12:21 a.m. - 2011-05-28 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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